I’m becoming concerned that I might have post partum depression. At the very least, my depression symptoms that I had before becoming pregnant have returned. My therapist and I believed, since the symptoms went away when I went off the pill in order to get pregnant, they were mostly caused by the pill. Now, I’m not so sure. I do think hormones must obviously play a part, because I was pretty smooth and steady during my entire pregnancy. Not anymore. I’m mostly fine, and sleep deprivation tends to bring it on, but I’m a bit worried. I’m calling my therapist tomorrow, and hopefully we can get on top of this before it gets any further out of hand. I’m not ready to share everything about it on the blog at this time. But, if you have any experirence (even second-hand) with post partum depression, I could use some advice, words of encouragement, what have you. I’m especially worried that I might have to go on prescription medication, and that there will be negative effects on breastfeeding. I know this will probably come as a bit of a surprise for those of you who know me personally, because I’m pretty good at keeping it together. But this new mom thing is really effing hard sometimes. And it’s made that much harder when my emotions get out from under me. Not to mention my own “mommy issues,” which leave me constantly worried that I’m going to mess up with Sadie the way my mom did with me.
Well, there you have it. How’s that for transparency?