Let me begin by making this disclaimer: I know that I am not overweight. I have a healthy BMI, and the vast majority of the foods I consume are very healthy. Having said that, however, I will admit that I have a very unhealthy body image. And seeing this photo of myself has kind of put me over the edge. I wanted to cry and gag at the same time.
I know, it’s probably not nearly as bad as I think it is. And I realize I’m being a total drama queen about it. But THIS is not how I want to look. Not even close. This makes me want to avoid being in pictures of Sadie, and that is a horrible way to live. I’ve tried working on thinking about my body differently, and it’s just not working. I don’t think I can trick myself into feeling good about my body unless I do something to get my body into a shape I’m happy with. And feeling good about my body is really important to me, because I want to be a good role model for Sadie. (This seems pretty convoluted, I’m sure… I want her to feel good about her body no matter what, so I have to change how my body looks in order to feel good about my own body–gah!)
At any rate, it’s time to make some changes. Changes in what I eat and my lack of activity. Cutting back on desserts is my main issue. And getting my butt into action is going to be hard. Which is why I’m being a little cliche and putting this down here. Self-discipline isn’t one of my strong suits. So here we go.
Starting today, Monday June 28, I will begin the One Hundred Push Ups challenge. I’m going to start out doing push ups on my knees, and once I complete this challenge, I’ll redo it the “regular” way. I’m completely grossed out with my arms, so this should help. It should also help me from getting so worn out holding a rapidly-growing Sadie. There’s also a sit ups challenge, and I might consider adding this at some point. My belly was a problem area before I got pregnant, so you can just imagine how I feel about it now.
I am also starting to use the Lose it! app on my iPhone. This is also going to be pretty tough. I’m not exactly sure my current weight, but I’m setting the goal right now of losing eight pounds, at one pound per week. I think this program will help me identify the foods I could relatively easily cut out–or at least drastically reduce the portions sizes.
Anyway, I’m planning on creating a page to track this, though I’m not exactly sure how that’ll work. I’ve got one friend from work participating in the One Hundred Push Ups already–anybody else want to join in on one or both of these?